Posts Tagged ‘Change’

Where’s Your Head At?

Thursday, November 9th, 2006

At the moment, I’m in the middle of another shift in my listening habits, a fairly sizable one. For years I’ve been neck deep in Electronic and Hip Hop with occasional forays into Jazz and even rarer ones into the Rock, Country, and Folk diaspora. Something about synthetic beats with warm and sticky rhythms and mechanical melodies grabbed me. I hungered for dystopian tracks that spoke of a near future urban sprawl but something has been shifting in me and I’m finding my fingers crawling out in search of something more organic, something human.

Looking over the past three months of purchases sees this trend growing:

  1. The Hold Steady – Boys and Girls in America
  2. Katharine Whalen – Dirty Little Secret
  3. Jas. Mathus – Old School Hot Wings
  4. The Blue Van – Dear Independence
  5. Horses Brawl – Horses Brawl
  6. Thievery Corporation – Versions
  7. Luke Vibert – Lover’s Acid
  8. Luomo – Paper Tigers
  9. Ad Astra Per Aspera – Catapult Calypso
  10. John Coltrane – Fearless Leader
  11. Charles Mingus Presents Charles Mingus
  12. Radio Citizen – Berlin Serengeti
  13. Paris Combo – Motifs
  14. Willowtree – What a Way to Go!
  15. The Black Neon – Arts & Crafts
  16. Ratatat – Classics
  17. Monsieur Leroc – I’m Not Young But I Need The Money
  18. The Contingencies – Viva Ole
  19. Bobby Hughes Combination – Nhu Golden Era
  20. Marc Mac pres. Visioneers – Dirty Old Hip Hop
  21. Wale Oyejide – Africa Hot! The Afrofuture Sessions
  22. Nomo – New Tones
  23. The Format – Dog Problems
  24. Quantic – An Announcement to Answer
  25. Thomas Mapfumo – Spirits To Bite Our Ears : The Singles Collection 1977-1986

Out of twenty-five albums, fifteen are unrelated to Electronic or Hip Hop and a handful that I did not highlight sort of occupy a space that isn’t quite really Electronic nor quite the organic feel of Rock or Jazz. This, so far, has seen me snap up five albums completely out of my normal element. So what’s with the shift?

Nostalgia. Well, that’s the lame ass theory I’m running with anyways. Looking back over my review for The Contingencies where I raved about a sound that leans way back but charges forward fueled by straight ahead guitar arrangements. After having snapped up that album along with Willowtree my ears felt thirsty for shorter, tighter, more aggressive arrangements. Not necessarily Punk or Thrash but sounds that left me warm all over reminiscing about practicing all weekend in the drummer’s half-heated garage, fingers stiff from the cold and swollen from pounding out song after song, never getting motivated enough to get a gig even at the local dives because really all we wanted to do was play.

Seems odd to think that after dropping out from the Daddy’s Junky Music and Sam Ash groupie scene that I would throw myself at music on the opposite spectrum but for a good eight years close to 80% of what I’ve been listening to could be classified as MPC/Pro-Tools music which is a far cry from the gritty Rock and Punk fueled Blues arrangements I cut my teeth on back in high school and my first tour of duty through college.

Recapturing lost youth on the eve of my first child? Yeah, that is the most likely answer here that and an astounding sense of ennui with what I have been listening to over the past year or so; that crushing feeling of “meh” has been heavy as of late and these last couple of selections have gotten me feeling a little more fired up about music.  If anything, my restless tastes result in a wide and varied selection and I can hope that our daughter, as she gets older, might find herself pawing through it on late nights like I did as a kid with my parents collection.

Tweaking…

Sunday, September 17th, 2006

Made some very minor tweaks yesterday, moved the flickr feed below the header to create a ribbon but only for the home page (and library for some strange reason), on all the other pages it disappears and becomes the usual block in the side bar.  Though, I’m going to have to make note of all these tweaks as the last k2 upgrade meant me sitting cutting and pasting endlessly to get back to the look and feel I want.  However, this time I used a little smarts and made a sidebar-custom.php file to encapsulate the bulk of my fiddling.  One of these days I’ll get around to really hacking it up to a completely new look and feel.

These moments are our last.

Thursday, June 22nd, 2006

The heading reads morbidly but it conveys some of the apprehension I am feeling. Management and I have been married six years, together for nine, and from our first date to this morning have never really spent a day apart excepting the very rare business trip. It has always been just the two of us and about us in our marriage. Now that her belly has really popped it is strikingly clear that the picture will now be of three. It is a huge shift in the dynamic.

Don’t get me wrong, I am excited, more excited about the arrival of our child than I have been about anything else in my life but there is this nagging sense of loss itching the back of my head. I am losing my place as I know it and I can never go back. That phrase, “You can never really go home,” is fitting in that my feelings are eerily similar to the one I had when I left my parents home and when we got married. For the sake of piling on maudlin cliches, doors close and doors open. Certainly our child presents an opportunity to bring us closer, and very likely it will, but that latch clicking behind me is bothersome.

Contingency planning has always been a big part of how I live my life; it isn’t that I am risk adverse rather I prefer to plan for risk and my planning always includes ways to return the situation back to the starting point. Trouble with massive life changes is that there is no way to restart, its a trajectory so the annoying little project manager in me crumples his Gantt charts and stomps around muttering to himself. Our child was planned but damn if I fully realized these emotions sweeping over me and my frustration that I cannot plan, only approximate.